fix that damaged tape.

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Friday, 5 October 2007 19:48

I tried. I really did.

I don't like it anymore. I don't. I don't. I don't. Cos I can't take all these lies anymore. & i hate lying to myself. I can't live a lie anymore. This is all a big mess right now. Cos all this is no point. No point anymore. So vulnerable to all this. I should have known. Now, I don't know what to do. Giving up on all this too easily. Too easily. But I'm trying to push the feeling away. But I don't know how. Why must we see this as a failure rather than a challenge we can overcome? so pessimistic. & I hate it. I hate it. Should I take my leave now? But that's just stupid. Cos I'm not doubting, I'm just worried. & making sense. Cos maybe it's for the better. But I don't want to. But you make it seem this way. How oh how? Why oh why? What oh what am I supposed to do? Maybe I should have listen. I should have. Yea, I guess, COS I FEEL LIKE A FAILURE! & I'M SORRY for every slightest way you're feeling right now.

YTD!! I was supposed to go jp and meet addie there BUT madrasah was extended. So, I hyper-ventilated with addie through sms. haha. Naza! Naza! xD During madrasah ustad gave us his address and really wanted us to Raya at his house

"We're going together with the boys?"
"No"
"Later they see us without tudung so weird"
"yaaaa! Tak nak uh!"

Haha. Quoted from fellow pink-addict. '

& someone was sending out reminders during madrasah. Tsk! [haha]

&& Ger made a MASQUE BLOG! Awesome mann! Click>> [[MASQUE]] YAY!
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[This was Fri's post which was not published]

I'm sick and tired of all these lies.
I'm sick and tired of all these cries.
I'm sick and tired of thinking it's ~~alright~~.
I'm sick and tired of wanting to hold your hand tight.

I'm sick and tired. ~~of me being this way~~

Alohaaaaa((:

I feel horrible mann. Seriously. They had lepak-ing session with Shasha and Sofea. Oh! Memories flow back. I miss it how Sofea would want to chase me around or "sheesh" me when I tease her ALOT. & there was retribution cos Shasha would do that to me. Haha. But i miss story-telling sessions!
How can this be?! Grahhh. Nvrm. Mon ok? Mon! ;D

I was supposed to meet iqah at woodlands but it was cancelled last min so i was at the lib alone): Then yea... okayyyy.

~~Screwed-up day~~

Sighs. But we kept holding on.
Everyone was running around.
Things started to sway.
I needed you right beside me.
But I know I can't stop you from going away.

Now I know. The meaning of... Wait. I don't even know.

~~Emo tak menjadi!~~ Rofl.

Btw today's 07/10/07 so...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAKIIM!

TAG REPLIES;

~ger: Kueh tutu? noooo! haha. Not cute like you mann. Pfft. Heh. && lastly, you ARE emo. Hear that? haha. xPP & I LOVE THE MASQUE BLOG! good job mann! Awesome!

~Addie: nooooo! We share arh? ROFL. Ok. Sounds wrong. Oops. Nvrm. We still can hyper-ventilate over them okok? ;DD

~aliah: hello! You too((: & my email is... pink_sweet94@hotmail.com

~iman: wahhh! So touched! haha. Salute Iman mann! ;DD

~anonymous: I don't think i ever used the four letter f word other than sh**. Sorry btw.

~nurul: You freaked out by kelambatan? Alamak! Why?? && dia bukan idiot. Dia seorang yang baik hati tau! xD

~janice: yesyes!! & we shall have more singing sessions with you singing and me humming! Set? ;DD wheeeeee!

~dini: ok. can! What date do you want? haha. Shall reserve a high-tea for you. Rofl. && noooo! You're singing is gooooooooooooood((((:

~atika: wokay!

~emmy: you wrote a plot already? YAY! xDD haha. & yessss. maths left! All the best, dear! ;DD

~izzah: i saw you too! xD

~farah: okay!

~danny: yepyep((: One more paper. haha. Thanks! You toooooo((: Believe in yourself dude!

-wired up